today gt alot lessons all dun have.haas.then one of the periods,the mr koh came in.he was sort of funny.i just cant tink tat he knows how to crack jokes.i mean,he looks kinda strict and his eyes were very scary.the colour of his eyeballs.gosh.

he scared us abt telling us how important is maths and if our maths fail we will not be able to get good jobs etc... he also said tat we SHLDNT fail any of our subjects,especially those who are the special stream.and i was lyk thinking abt my future.i am starting to feel sad and scared.my maths just passed only.and if i gt that mark for the whole year overall,i wont be able to study a maths.

then it was maths.my tan came in and he didnt teach us anything.instead he became talking abt logic and common sense and OUR future.and there was a sentence tat i remembered very clearly: "those who gt c5,if u work hard,i can gurantee tat u will improve and u can study a maths." does he mean tat those below c5(me) wont be able to study a maths?omfg.

i am so damn scared.i shld have worked hard during ca1 and now i realy REALLY regretted for forgiving myself for failing.i shld be harsher to myself and give myself tons of stress.tat might work yeah?

as he was talking,i was thinking again.and i felt lyk crying at that point of time.and i tink tat wat he said,makes SENSE. everything can talk later but can u just give me some time to heal the wound in my heart?

i told my mum ytd abt my science and others.she did not scold me!!!omfg.rofl.i HAVE to thank god >_> .she just asked why i gt a c6.and i had to explain it to her.today received lit paper.haas.got an a.3 a's. a little sad.shld get 5 de.not 3 ONLY.

i HAVE to tell my mum abt my maths marks sooner or later.(mr tan say we cant run away from problems) and next fri i need to attend the parents meeting session.omfg.and tat really sucks.to make things worse,it's COMPULSORY.WTH.